Malam tadi aku yang aku meninggal.

Dalam mimpi tu aku rasa tenang sangat, tapi ada rasa menyesal. Feeling sorry for neglecting my responsibilities as a muslim. I took everything for granted. 

Tapi sebelum aku “pergi” tu aku sempat mengucap. Eventhough dalam mimpi je, tapi aku rasa syukur sangat. I hope when the times come aku dapat mengucap kalimah “لا إله إلا الله”. You know what people say, Everything starts with a dream” and this is my dream.

But the interesting part in that dream is, there’s a girl beside me. That I keep telling her i love her so much over and over and over and over and over again.

“I love you so much, sayang”


Then she asked me “why are you acting so weird?”

I didn’t answer her question, but I keep telling her I love her and she replied, “I love you too, babe. You’re the best thing that ever happened to me. Then we smile at each other.

But the problem is, I don’t who she is. I never met her in my life (Definitely not ex-girlfriend). Probably I met her somewhere, but I’m not sure where or maybe my instagram follower. Maybe, just maybe.

After I woke up, I thought to myself, “there are certain things in my life that I need to change”. Yeah indeed it is time to change. It’s now or never.

If the girl I dreamed is my future wife. I just wanna say that, I don’t know who you are & and where you are, but I want you to know that i’m working on myself to be the best that I can be. I might have to wait, but I’ll never give up.

As the proverb says,

“Good things come to those who wait”

And If this dream is a hint from Allah. I hope I will die in Husnul khotimah.


June 24, 2020